When I
began reading scripture, specifically the Book of Exodus I often wondered how
people lost faith in God even after He showed them so many miraculous signs. In the desert they grumbled and even turned
against God, at one point they wanted to be back as slaves instead of wandering
towards the Promised Land. As I began
applying the word of God to my life I began to understand a little better why
the chosen people grumbled- I too found myself repeatedly doubting and
complaining when I felt God had deserted me or wasn’t listening. The act of remembering is difficult to adapt
when we are going through struggles. To
remember what God has done for us in the past, how He has delivered us before,
and to remain strong in adversity relying on God’s promises takes a lot of
faith. To place our trust on God even
during the greatest tempest requires supernatural faith. Remembering what He has done in the past for
us needs to give us courage during difficult moments. Knowing our Biblical history strengthens our
faith and our trust in God grows as we get to know Him better. Similarly, in our human relationships we need
to adapt this tool of remembering. As
trust between two grows there will be trials that will challenge the
relationship- but during these moments of doubt we need to remember that we are
both on the same team working towards the same goal. We need to remember to trust God as He guides
us and to have faith in each other based on the past displays of mutual
self-giving.
The road
towards building stronger trust among two is hard! Especially at the beginning when we feel like
we are on opposing teams. Yet, if we
want things to work out we need to develop the habit of seeing each other as
teammates. This is quite difficult. Though I try to have faith and trust in my
friend sometimes I get scared and insecure too.
It doesn’t help that I am an introvert and we introverts love to
overthink things- sometimes we think about things so much that we create
problems that were never there to begin with.
I wrote something on a friend’s wall the other day and I started thinking
that maybe it sounded really inappropriate, like I was endorsing drinking and
partying so I deleted the comment. This
brought hurt to my friend and only afterwards did I realize that my over
analyzing got the best of me. Sometimes
when we are opening up ourselves and our lives to another there’s this great
fear that I will mess up and lose the affections of my beloved. This fear of loss due to a wrong step can
bring a lot of insecurity. Yet, I learned (from this experience) that in a
friendship or any relationship where there is some form of love there too will
be acceptance even when we mess up. If I
look back at our friendship, and remember
the things that we have overcome I gain confidence in us, but if I focus on the
fear and insecurities then instead of building I am tearing down. Our faith teaches us the importance of
remembering, everyday during Mass we remember and participate in our Salvation
Story. Thus, I need to remember constantly
that you and I are chums and chums are on the same team working towards the
same purpose. Sometimes, like our peeps
in Exodus I will forget and grumble- just please be patient and kind with me. Am so happy with our growth and looking
forward to what’s to come. ¡Siempre adelante!
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