I don’t know about you, but trying to live life with a sense of normalcy has been such a challenge after such a long period of quarantine. Sometimes I feel quite agoraphobic because I have difficulty motivating myself to do things outside my home. While in-person Mass has been reinstated my normal Bible study groups still for the most part have either continue meeting virtually or not at all. Though there are some benefits to meeting virtually, I miss the side conversations that I use to have with members from my Franciscan fraternity. I miss my Monday night weekly study, luckily the Rise women’s monthly meetings have started to be back in person and they truly are food for my soul. My Master Catechesis Certificate program has also been on hold…
Yet, as things start opening back up, I have difficulty
getting myself motivated enough to leave my house. Sometimes, it’s a couple months before I hit
the dog park because I struggle with leaving my house. I still haven’t gotten my visiting the Blessed
Sacrament routine down because I get home from work and I am so accustomed to
my home environment being “it” that leaving it again is sometimes quite
impossible. Through my Facebook page I
see friends going out and enjoying integrating back into society, it looks like
so much fun, but come the weekend and all I want to do is be home.
I have started to do things outside my house a little more,
but I struggle with my mind still being trapped in quarantine mentality. I have shared this with other friends and it
seems like it’s normal to feel unmotivated to leave the house because for over
a year that was all we were able to do.
I’m hoping that soon I can start making plans to travel and continue
challenging myself to get back integrated into society overcoming my new anxiety.
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