Happy New Year! It’s
the time for resolutions- to create a list of things one hopes to tackle in
2019. I usually have a list ready, but last year I learned that instead of a
list with numerous changes I work better if I just have one big goal to focus
on. This 2019 my one resolution is me,
to work on me. As Dollar has aged, I
have changed our hikes and long excursions with short ten minute walks around
the neighborhood. I don’t want to go on strenuous
walks alone because I feel guilty leaving my little wolf behind; but, I know
that sacrificing my activity is not doing either of us any good. Thus, this New Year I plan on increasing my
activity level – even if it’s just on my own.
Most of the time I get so distracted with all the things that I need to accomplish
that I sacrifice working on me. I also
have way too many things going on and I think that I need to start letting go
of some activities to focus my energy on giving my best to only a couple of
things instead, this purging will help me focus on me- to improve areas that
need major attention.
In defining working on me I feel like my whole being needs a
bit of a makeover. I especially struggle with my
weight due to the medications that I take for Bipolar, since my diagnoses I
feel like I have focused so much on my mental wellbeing that I dismissed my
physical. BUT, I finally feel like I am
in control of my mental disability and am trying to live my life no longer limited
by this struggle. Thus, I want to learn
to be physically healthy. Before my
diagnoses I was at a healthy weight and active, this gives me hope that I can
reach within me and find that physically healthy girl. I know that due to the side effects of the
medications it will be challenging to overcome the desire to stuff my face and
I also need to learn not use food as a coping mechanism. Thus, this New Year involves re-teaching
myself to have both a healthy relationship with food and a more active
lifestyle.
I’ve mentioned this desire in the past and obviously I got
distracted and didn’t tackle my objective, but what I have learned from a
persistent predator trying to eat my birds is that it doesn’t matter how many
times I fail- the goal is to continue trying.
Winston Churchill said it best, “success is stumbling from failure to
failure with no loss of enthusiasm.” Thus,
this 2019 is going to be a year of persistence of trying and trying until I
taste victory.
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